I’m not going to be an activist/organizer anymore.
Probably for good, but who knows. I doubt I’ll be able to quit cold turkey, that lifestyle is so ingrained, but I’ve already scaled back, and will continue in that direction. I hope those who are inspired to change the world for the better keep up the fight, and that they have better results than I did. I don’t know that it’s possible, but you have to believe so, in order to make the effort.
I hope they don’t make the same mistakes I did, though, like ignoring the need for money, friends and family. Yes, I know it’s impolite and impolitic to list the first along with the other two, but when you start getting old and don’t have any of them, things really start to suck. I realize, rather late, that the presence of at least one in some decent measure is rather critical to success, actually at any age, but especially old. I’m not technically old yet, but I am within spitting distance, and it’s looking grim.
If you want things to change, you can’t keep doing the same shit you’ve been doing. So I will be consciously altering my behavior, and trying to shake things up. And I’m going to be doing a lot more looking back at the things I’ve done and not done, and seeing what I can glean in terms of self-understanding — and create towards life enhancement.